this is a poem
adhd gothic
- you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.
- there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.
- you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.
- your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?
- someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.
- there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.
- you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember.
- there is a task that needs to be done. it should take ten minutes. you check the clock. it’s been five minutes. you check the clock. it’s been two days.
Who gave you this summary of my week
- you are excited to do the thing. you are eager to do the thing. you do not do the thing and you cannot say why. your body is operated by a force beyond yourself.
- you awake and lie in bed. you plan a detail to-do list in your head. excited, you step out of bed only to feel the motivation drain off of you like oil from a duck’s back. the bed calls to you like a siren to a sailor
- did you lock the door? if you check, you will have locked the door. if you do not check, you will not have locked the door. if you check and have locked the door there is a reasonable chance you will accidentally unlock the door. there is no way to win this game.
- you are hungry. you eat nothing. you are not hungry. you eat everything. the moon laughs at you.
- you have had a tune stuck in your head for three days now. it is not a tune that exists on earth. it will not leave.
ok but like. the whole thing of the X Gothic was that the meme generally was “take things about X (living in the south, going to college, whatever) and then make them just slightly off. just slightly eerie and possibly supernatural”
I swear to god it doesn’t feel like a word of this is anything but describing what it’s like to have ADHD. Which makes it both a very unique example of the meme and way too fucking relatable -_-
People who don’t do or create shit are always the most critical because they have no frame of reference. They severely underestimate how much energy it takes, how much fear and other psychic burdens need to be overcome, the sheer amount of relentless persistence, faith and self-belief it takes to put something, no matter how feeble and shitty, out in to the world.
It seems so easy just looking. “I could do that”. “I could’ve made that”. Well then do it. Look at the most feeble and easy looking creative work and then replicate it in your own way. And with no irony or hiding or joking- in all sincerity put your name on it - and show it to others. People you know in real life. As a representation of yourself. See how it feels. You’ll have a new appreciation and softness towards creative friends and strangers.
tiktok can’t outdo the doer
To be fair tiktok WAS first to do this (Ships of the northern fleet)
The Homestucks on here were pretending the Squiddles were a real show (and the comic was actually an anime) like a decade ago on here.
I was thinking about Fu in relation to flower buds again because it's just so funny to me. Like for Coulie it's this very fraught and complicated thing but Aneas just sees him as an in-law (and so does Fu tbh) and they're literally just vibing lmao
Aneas hasn't really wrapped his head around the amount of problems Fu has and continues to cause for everybody, he just wants to get along and like make him casseroles and stuff--
We had to heat up his food because it had frozen and he was not happy about it
